Taking a much NEEDED break!

After dealing with Mr.Joe, I have long decided from mid January, to take a break from dating and talking to guys who weren't already my friends. Some may so, "girl, don't let one bad apple make you go into hiding", well thats not exactly the case.
Through the journey of various relationships, I have dealt with a lot. I've been cheated on multiple times. Had a crazy mother call my cell phone 50times because her hard-headed son left her house at 12am. Dated someone who was a daddy, the main problem was that his bestfriend told my bestfriend about a daughter I just wasn't aware of. I've dealt with the compulsive liars, guys who just felt it was ok to not call for over a week, ( now I do call, but I do not blow up anybody's phone..i don't like doing it..I don't like it done to me..everybody has caller ID if the call rang all the way to voicemail..then it should show a miss call or two) and other miscellaneous issues.
Even though I dealt with all that drama, I always seen every guy as an individual. Every person deserve the opportunity to introduce themselves without being prejudged. So I usually didn't let my past issues travel over to the next. Just about every relationship I have gotten myself into, I had talked to the other person for a period of time prior to the commitment. I tried to get to know them, get past the facade, and get a better idea of who they are after the trying to impress you phase.
A few of my female friend would say, I don't know how you give everyone a clean slate after dealing with the drama. Well I have male friends, older brothers (32 and 31) and two older sisters (29 and 29)-one of my sisters is actually a sister in law. Between all of the above, I get insightful advice, that allows me to realize that everyone isn't the same. And getting advice from the male perspective does truly help.
That's how I always kept a positive outlook. Well more like, thats how I used to keep a positive outlook.
After dealing with a whole lot more bull, as some would read from my "Why must simple situations become difficult" blog, and the other stuff that I have yet to mention. I have become frustrated. I grew up with a father that cheated, but sadly to say, the Belizean culture had made that an acceptable thing, because my grandfathers did the same thing. Anyway, I have seen my male friend do some messed up things while in a relationship, and just watch some of my sibling relationships kind of dissolve right before my eyes.
I know relationships aren't easy, they take time, effort, patience, and communication. All things I'm ready to invest. But at this point in my life, time is precious. I'm trying to reach a certain point in my life by a certain age. I'm trying to be stable in my career and a home owner by 24/25. So to invest my time in someone, they need to be worth it. After dealing with Joe, I wasted a lot of emotions and time. I felt like he was different, you know goal oriented, intelligent, respectful, sweet, and tall (6'6). Yes I have a thing for tall guys...anyway moving on...So after dealing with that chapter in my life I've just become fed up.
I have heard the beautiful word Love, one too many times from lips that destroyed its meaning. I have been proposed to by someone who can't even tell you what school i go to, or even my full name.
I find myself not being able to believe a single word that tries to make its way to my heart. A tall strapping guy can try to approach me and wont get much of a glance out of me.
And this is why I know I need this break from relationships and talking to prospective guys. Because I can't take them seriously. So instead of wasting my time, I just need to reach to the state of mind i once had.
I'm young, 18, I don't need to rush it, its not then end of the world. Just a learning experience.