Being Single

I'm starting to miss the companionship one has while in a relationship. I miss being with someone I can hold hands with, and rest my head in the crook of their neck while we people watched and laughed at outlandish outfits. I miss staying up longer than I should, because I was talking to my boyfriend, and he was going into great detail about his day. I miss the petty disagreements as to why I believe the Eagles are better than the Raiders. I miss the good, the bad, and the ugly when it comes to relationships. It has been awhile since I've been in a solid relationship, it's also been a while since I've been on a date.
I kind of frustrate myself. Since January, I find myself being a bit more suspicious as far as trusting what young men have to say to me. It makes me wonder if I am creating a self-fulfilling prophecy. I haven't really acquainted myself with too many guys, just three. One who seemed like he had great potential, later started dating an ex-girlfriend, while he still tried to "holla" at me. That one made me scratch my head. The second spoke of his fear of commitment, which I took as a big red sign to not waste my time seeking a relationship with him, yet he wanted to still be an option. Funny thing is, later down the line I ended up rehashing things with an ex, and I let number 2 know this, and since then I haven't heard from him. Guess he really wasn't up for being friends. The third one, well lets just say my older brother intimidated him to the point where he stopped answering my calls. Thanks big bro..NOT!!!
Other than that, I really haven't met anyone new. And as usual, there is an ex beating on my door to give him another chance. I cannot do it!!! I miss the relationship life, but I will not allow myself to date another ex. I have to keep on going forward.
Being single is fine, but a girl misses the relationships.