Miss Independent

I must say, I am seriously feeling Ne-yo's new song. It was first introduced to it by my boyfriend, who decided to make it my assigned ringtone. After I listened to it on imeem.com, I knew this song had to be one of my anthems.
As of now, the title will be Junior Miss. Independent, since I am a full time college student (NURSING MAJOR WOOT WOOT) and still need assistance in paying for education(thanks mom). As you may have read before, I am definitely a young lady who stays on top of her ish. I have 2 and a half jobs (job 1= Associate in Admissions office, job 2= tutor{math, english, and science}, job 1/2= seasonal price changer at Macy's) , I am Coordinator of the tour guide program, President of African American Council of Women, Sophomore Nursing Student Representative, and Member of the California Nursing Student Association. With all of that, I manage to study, pay my bills, socialize, and hang with my friends and boyfriend( or at least talk to them).
I do all of that because it makes me feel good to be busy, to have a lot to do. I work under pressure, pressure keeps me motivated. So when I have a plethora of things to do, I buckle down and get it done. Which is one of the main reasons I haven't been blogging much. I love being behind the wheel of my own destiny, and taking hold of my present and future.
These days I pay special attention to who I let in my life, or back into my life. As of recently, a few people I told to hit the road, are trying to rekindle a friendship. I'm still debating, and I'm definitely leaning towards NOT rebuilding a friendship. I realize, once a door has been closed, it needs to stay closed. I like to keep moving forward, sometimes I look back, but I don't stop to stare, I gotta make moves.
Now my boyfriend is doing an ok job at handling me and my schedule. I hear the "you're spreading yourself too thin" or the "you don't have much time for me" spiels. Generally this happens when he is trying to hang out, and I'm looking at my schedule realizing I don't have the time. I think he's just not busy enough. He's taking the semester off, and works one job. So when he has a day off he has nothing to do. However, when I have a day off, I still have other things scheduled. I let him know all of this before we got into a relationship, and considering it's still new, I am not going to alter my entire schedule. I will make time, but nothing drastic. If we are still together come 3-6 months, than I might leave special time just for him, as long as it doesn't conflict with school and work.
ASIDE: reading that last sentence made me sound like a woman who would put her career before her home. Right now, I'm young (19) and I need to reach my goals. So a relationship isn't the top of my priorities. It is somewhere on the list, but definitely not the top 10. After 23-24when I have my Masters, then my priorities will undergo construction. Right now, he'll just have to work his way up the ladder, and I hope its the same circumstances for him. I definitely do not think I need to be the top of his priorities right now. Maybe I need to have a conversation about this to make sure we are on the same page.....
End of Aside

My lovely mother enjoys seeing the person I am blossoming into, it chokes her up when she talks about it. Especially this year, I noticed an increase in her emotional responses when I go home and leave. Its the realization that her baby is really doing big things all by herself. After saving up some money, I bought my mom a necklace with a message engraved into it. The words basically read that she has raised me well, and now she must trust to let me go free and prosper. When she looks at me, I can see how proud she is of me, and it makes me feel so good. I love making her proud, and I'm glad its through doing something I want to do. I must say, I am probably a clone of my mother. Besides looking a like, I have sipped from her strength, power, elegance, and feistyness. ( Do not play, my mother looks and sounds sweet, be she can burn you without you realizing it at first) I've always been a mommas girl!

Well I think I am done with this post. I started it on the 12th of September, and it is now the 19th..lol..so sad.

My top 10 empowering songs for women..in no particular order

1. you gotta be by Des'ree
2. Independent Woman by Destiny's Child
   
3. Miss Independent by Ne-yo
   
4. Like this by Kelly Rowland
   
5. R-E-S-P-E-C-T by Aretha Franklin
6. Back up by Beyonce
7. Superwoman by Alicia Keys
8. I'm ever woman by Chaka Khan
9. Independent by Webbie...( got to love this when I'm rolling on the 405)
10. Survivor by Destiny's Child